I want to escape…

I want to escape…
Sequels of my past my mind rewinds
Longing to rearrange my memories
But woe is me, can only be re-written
And it takes courage to create new ones!

I want to escape…
Snafues – Miniscule but magnified
Into dissappointments and regrets
Overgrown gigantically to low self-esteem
Resulting in ill belief of worthlessness!

I want to escape…
Weight of the world bringing me down
Keeping ill-moments alive which hurt
Desisting after failures,missteps of qualms
Feeling powerless over what happens to us!

I want to escape…
My Feelings – Landing me in quicksilver
Marred, unreciprocated,exploited,squandered!
Expectations gone unnoticed, desires unresponded
Aches, tears, sobs,tender hearts can’t bear!

I want to escape…
My nonsense, overthinking panicky mind
Protracted cancerous chemtrails of negativity
Redundant whirlpools eating up will to carry on,
Toppling strength,capitulating my own shadow!

High Tides

The waves of time buffet on my essence in reminiscence
Throwing many shattered memories along it’s shore….
Eyes drown in the pain of flashbacks of hope and hopelessness,
Captivated and constrained,fated and circumstanced,deprived and devoid….
Water from oceans of over-flowing emotions crashes upon my heart,
It rips barriers of my lesions
Forlorn and weary,fortitude gives way and lets sentiments drown the
spirit in inadequacy
A splinter that penetrated way back pangs and twinges through my veins
The retrospect brings wails of my tender heart over my apathy
Cruel Intent which locked it within like a Superintendent
Which imprisoned it in iron cuffs of fear….Fear of Love!
Brain which like a cruel Jailer wrote on the walls of my cell
Love?Love is a weakness, hurts and confiscates
Love?Love is beyond comfort zones, beyond strength!
The Fears danced around the bonfires on the shores of my lifeless corpse
Uneffected by my shrieks and pounds, laughing at my helplessness
Feelings bleeding,bruises-A walk upon shells of my broken dreams perhaps…
Chills of sorrow down my spine and bones owed to coastal winds of loneliness
The tides ebb away….But leave debri of regret on shores of my conscience!