I want to escape…

I want to escape…
Sequels of my past my mind rewinds
Longing to rearrange my memories
But woe is me, can only be re-written
And it takes courage to create new ones!

I want to escape…
Snafues – Miniscule but magnified
Into dissappointments and regrets
Overgrown gigantically to low self-esteem
Resulting in ill belief of worthlessness!

I want to escape…
Weight of the world bringing me down
Keeping ill-moments alive which hurt
Desisting after failures,missteps of qualms
Feeling powerless over what happens to us!

I want to escape…
My Feelings – Landing me in quicksilver
Marred, unreciprocated,exploited,squandered!
Expectations gone unnoticed, desires unresponded
Aches, tears, sobs,tender hearts can’t bear!

I want to escape…
My nonsense, overthinking panicky mind
Protracted cancerous chemtrails of negativity
Redundant whirlpools eating up will to carry on,
Toppling strength,capitulating my own shadow!